Yo yo, what up?! Yes yes, you read the title correctly... sadly (lol). Alright, let me first say uh hello! Another somewhat soon-ish journal from the last one? I just really felt like I needed to write this, so I can come to this later and re-think it all over and all that jazz. ;w; Ok so uh... Today, I had a (dumb) idea, after getting inspired by two fun animators/Youtuber girls who make somewhat story time videos of stuff that they have went through with animation and they also got animatics and cool stuff, super fun! The format is actually not that complicated, will it take time? Well, as someone who (tried) used to make YouTube videos almost nonstop from around 2007-2013 ish, from around crappy fanfic stories in video format (didn't know about fanfiction. net at the time lmao), to shitty voice acting with crappy recorded clips of Super Smash Bros. Brawl, shitty voice acting with TOYS, self recording trying to be "funny" (it was EXTREMELY cringy…), gaming videos, posting songs with pics found on Google, AMV's, very shitty MS Paint animation, dancing video, god I tried almost everything and they all sucked... Yes, they do take a lot even if the video is super simple! I would take hours, sometimes days and weeks making one video for my channel, especially for the fanfic series one. Can't believe I made over 150 videos in that channel... Eesh. (I made private the most cringiest videos, but some of those old dark day videos are still there in the dark depths of YouTube, one video still getting comments... uff.)
Anyways! Coming back to the main topic, I started thinking "hey, why don't I start fresh with an art channel and a place to use my drawings/"animations" to tell the fun stories that have happened to me?" Like I thought about it, being 4 years in my college/uni, I have gone through some really funny experiences and even.. ugh, very cringy ones too that are worthy to be shared for just shits and laughs! But I'm a bit iffy, because...! I will list them below lol:
1) I'm self conscious of my voice: Whenever I hear my normal voice in a recording, I find it very annoying and embarrassing. Even though I'm 21, I sound like an annoying 12 year old girls with my high pitched voice, and when I get too excited with a topic I tend to speak very fast so.. yeah. But like, if I'm not trying to either make my voice sound "cute" or try to change my voice to sound "better", talking normal and hearing myself makes me feel a bit weird, like I hate my voice sometimes, both in Spanish and English lmao. Hell, I even apologize to friends that hear me talk over voice chat when I stream in my Picarto or voice recordings haha. ;w;'
2) YouTube is becoming somewhat shitty: Now, don't get me wrong I got no interest in trying to make a living or get profit with YouTube, especially now that lots of creators are having trouble getting themselves out there, and some that already made a living out of this platform are at risk of losing lots of money cause long story short, YouTube is a mess. You can easily get demonetized, get a strike for no reason, newcomers have a hard time to try and get a reach and you know, start with their channel, etc. So even though I don't mind how many views or subs I get, at the same time I do wanna be able to reach at least some people, ya' get me?
3) Lack of dedication/motivation: I want to do this and a lot more, but for the past probably 2-3 years, I've been losing motivation and even some dedication when it comes to art and it does worries me. I still love what I do, I do enjoy art, it is my passion but lately I just I don't know, feel too lazy, got lots of WIPs waiting to be finished, etc. I'm scared that if I do start this channel, it will take me months to be updating it cause either I will be too lazy to make a next one or life will have me too busy to focus on making new content so it worries me that the channel will become a ghost channel so soon and I don't wanna drop it.
So those are my three main worries! But! I still wanna make a go for it, even if I take a long ass time to make content. Since I already finished with my college life, like I said, I got funny and cringy stories I would like to share with you guys by making simple "animations" (I quote cause it will be just different drawings put together and stuff and won't have so much movement). I would also, maybe try and upload some speed paints once I get better with digital. Also, maaaaaaybe some gaming videos just for fun! Since I got OBS studio, it is great for recording speed paints and games in my new laptop, soo why not? Plus some gaming videos here and there won't be so bad to keep the channel a little bit alive, no? ^^'a But another bit of the worry is the mic, I don't know how good this laptop mic is and I won't get a microphone any time soon nor try to invest in one (although it would be great to practice voice acting...), the only closest I can get one would be those headphones that come with the mic perhaps? ^^' But yes, so uhh yeah, it's still not official since I got stuff to do with the animation group and I'm babysitting my little sis every week cause mom and her dad are working all day so yeah. I already got a couple ideas for some videos I would love to make and I really wanna get it started but first I gotta try and get a *cough*crackedversion*cough of Adobe Premier and figure out the sizes for the drawings to it can take full screen and stuff. So before I go, a reminder that I still do post are but in different platforms so here they are:
- Tumblr: www.make-it-chibi-art.tumblr.com
- Instagram: www.instagram.com/make_it_chibi_art/
- Toyhou: www.toyhou.se/Make-it-chibi
I'm mostly more active these days on my IG, but I need to catch up with my Tumblr but I do have some art to share! Plus if you guys want to know more about my ocs, Toyhou is the place where I keep their info and profiles along with of course, art of them. ^.^ Once again, I would post the link to my fanfiction. net account but I haven't gotten around to writing anything, not even the ideas I had in mind so... sorry.. ;w;' So yeah I guess this is all I wanted to say, if you guys are interested in this YouTube channel, I will gladly make another journal with the link to it with it's official debut haha. Hopefully it does well and I'm able to make it, it will be just for fun and well, just like side projects I guess but I wanna start simple with the videos haha. Sorry for the long journal but I couldn't help it haha, have a nice weeee~!!
--Gray